Abyssal Words

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I am tired.  Tired of this dark, cruel world,  Where everyone is a liar.  They keep their true self hidden,  Just to plaster an angelic smile,  And appear as an angel.  But, they are not,  And it's all a lie, a facade,  Cause when others are suffering,  They take joy,  They love to see pain,  And the ones who don't, ignore it.  Nobody is willing to help.  They spread baseless rumors,  Just to ruin someone's reputation.  And what does it give them?  A huge amount of pleasure,  For making someone else's life miserable,  Because their was.  But, it kills the person, from deep within.  Being insulted about things they haven't even done,  Being reminded about all their pain,  Not being trusted, wrapped in constant doubts,  Being constantly judged,  Who says it doesn't matter?  It does, and it hurts.  Being made fun of,  What must the person be going through,...

I am frustrated and angry,  I am crying again,  Everything is wrong with me,  Why do I feel this pain? Such a small argument I had,  And tears are falling on my bed,  Oh, I upsetted someone again,  And now my heart is feeling sad.  I am crying out my eyes,  But there's no one around me to see,  It wasn't really my fault,  But who is there to understand me?  It keeps happening again and again,  I keep getting angry and say,  Things which ruin my relations,  How can I make this okay?  I am possessive of the people I love,  I tend to get jealous easily,  I make a mountain out of a molehill,  But there's no one here who can understand me.  I am paranoid of the world outside,  I am full of insecurities and flaws,  I can't bear someone hating me,  I feel so distant even when I am close.  I make mistakes while I am angry,  It's not that I do it intentionally,  And even t...

Water droplets fall from the sky,  And the darkness falls around,  The dark clouds hover above me,  As I step on the hard, rocky ground.  The night is melancholy and quiet,  And there's not a soul around,  No sound except for the rain can be heard,  As I keep walking on the ground.  The rain gives comfort to my lonely soul,  And it heals all of my wounds,  The touch of the rain makes me feel so great,  As I just keep walking in rounds.  But soon the rain stops and the clouds go away,  And the birds start chirping around,  I feel like I am not lonely anymore,  As I step in the mud on the ground.  ~Mystery Night

Eyes full of tears,  Throat is running dry,  My day is being spent,  As I simply cry and cry.  My breath is getting shorter,  I wish my heart to stop,  I just came back from the funeral,  With this loss, how can I cope?  It's not HER who died,  It's my own soul which went away,  They tell me to calm down,  But how can I still be okay?  There's a part of me that's broken now,  Nothing can provide me peace,  If possible, I want to die And that's only when I can rest with ease.  ~Mystery Night

The darkness is making it impossible to breath,  It's getting hard for me to sleep,  All my sins weigh down upon me,  All the mistakes I made are the only thing I see,  It's hard to let go of the past,  when its the only thing I can think about,  Thoughts wasted on what I can never change, And yet the only thing I feel is regret,  How I wish I could turn back time,  And create an error free life,  But all I know is I cannot,  Change the past and erase my fault.  ~Mystery Night